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wo years of time wasted
lies and deceit,
the bitter and the sweetest tasted
good and bad memories to keep.

Holding on just to say we made it
no talking, just time spent in the sheets
figured our debts to love and paid it
left us both scarred and weak.

Love got too complicated
too tempted to cheat
we both became a little jaded
but neither would admit their defeat.

So we held on to the ship
no white flag was drawn
even as we tasted poison from other's lips
our relationship carried on.

Two years of time wasted,
lies and deceit.
the bitter and the sweetest tasted.
good and bad memories to keep.

Unhappiness on both sides
but neither of us dared to be free
so we let our souls collide
and i lost the best part of me.

Two years of time wasted....
lies and deceit
the bitter and the sweetest tasted...
good and bad memories to keep.

Love all over me...

I never knew how bad I wanted it,
to feel it all over me like a second skin
to have the flame to my soul lit
to feel as if I can finally hold the ultimate prize and say, "I win."

I've never wanted to feel so clean,
washed all over in him,
to feel as if I am stuffed to my seams
with all of him...


I almost felt like this once. I felt like I would drown in him, not wanting to ever come up for air because he was all the life that I needed. Like the world didn't turn unless I heard his voice or could see his smile... I needed these two things like my skin needs the sun. I soaked him up like...like a sponge...like a drop of water in the desert, like a fat, country man with a biscuit and some gravy... I had to have him everyday like a once a day vitamin or my stomach would feel so hollow that I would constantly eat and drink to fill this void only to have that emptiness move to another spot that I could never touch to heal... Not without him...

Monica's "Love All Over Me" just reminded me of how good it felt to satisfy that feeling. To feel as if I was walking on a cloud and heights were making the bottom of my feet tingle. I wanted to wrap his love around me like a Snuggie and curl up in the tightest, smallest place that I could and not move... Like I could jump out of an airplane backwards, no parachute and know that I would land safely because his love would be my safety net...

That's the love I look forward to feeling and experiencing again... hopefully this next jump is even better than the first.